Sit back for a moment and reflect on your previous relationships. Just for a second. Okay, how many relationships have you been in? A few, okay, do you know why they didn’t work? Possibly because of constant arguments about things such as money, cheating, etc. It could have been due to cheating itself. We have a multitude of reasons for ending a relationship. What is the most common reason though?
The most common reason for ending a relationship is abuse. Did you consider that a possibility for the relationship ending? Many of us don’t think it is just that but take a look at it. Constant fights resulting in name calling and insults, that’s mental and emotional abuse. Getting into a physical fight, well obviously that’s physical abuse. I don’t mean wrestling around either. Did you consider physical, mental and emotional abuse?
For many of us women we don’t feel like we deserve better. We are convinced that we can’t get better. We are torn down to nothing it seems. Worthless, ugly, undesirable, a waste of space, and many other things are pounded into our heads. Do you know why that sinks in so deeply? Because we move with our emotions, our hearts, our desire to be needed. Women are likely to move with their heart while a man moves with his mind.
By no means am I saying that all women are like that. I don’t mean that women are the only ones abused because men are too. It is more common to hear of a woman being abused though. How many men have you heard of being in an abusive relationship? How many women have you heard of that are in an abusive relationship? In my own opinion I believe that women are easier to manipulate and abuse emotionally and mentally. Being abused physically is somewhat easier as well because we are the weaker sex. Men are generally stronger than women and can over power them easily.
How often are we told that someone is lying to us and deceiving us? What follows that statement and small conversation? How about the conversation about how you should stay away from those types of people and you’re told that they won’t hurt you? You’re told that someone close to you is hurting so you are convinced to turn away from them and instead turn towards the one that is telling you to leave the other.
Manipulation is easy when you know the other person is weak and vulnerable. You know, like you’re being preyed upon like an injured animal. They tell you in a sense what you want to hear. They play along with the situation and sway you to their side. Like the comical example of, “Join the Dark Side. We have cookies.” I believe that is a type of manipulation that is heavily used by those that are abusive.
While you’re with them they push you away and then they pull you back. They fight with you and then turn around and love on you. They ignore you after a fight and leave you in tears begging and pleading for them to come back. You’re told that you don’t know enough to be out on your own. You haven’t “matured” enough to be out in the “real world.” There are more life lessons you haven’t learned so you should stay instead of leaving.
By god they brainwash you and convince you that you can’t stand on your own two feet and you need to lean on them like a crutch. You need to depend on them in some way shape or form. Almost like being treated like a child who doesn’t know what they are doing. Brainwash them into needing them and convincing them that you need them. Is it wrong to do such a thing? Oh yes it is. I think it’s quite low of someone to do such a thing.
I’ve been in all three types of abusive relationships. Physical, emotional, mental abuse that is. Convinced and brainwashed into believing things that weren’t true. Being told one thing to my face and all the while there are lies being spread behind my back. You’re being told not to trust a certain kind of person and yet they are stabbing you in the back and you don’t even know it. You don’t realize the lies and the deception that was going on behind your back until you’re out of the situation and you can look back.
I sit here looking back and see the lies appear before my eyes and it hurts so deeply. Being told that you’re loved and you can trust someone that isn’t going to hurt you is something we all want to hear. Finding out they were exactly what you were told to stay away from. Those closest to you hurt you the most at times.
This is why I have trust issues. I’ve been through hell and back. It seems like it’s a never ending cycle. Well after this last bout of deception and manipulation, I refuse to be treated that way again. I deserve better than that. If you have to lie and deceive me, manipulate me and not accept me for the way I am, I don’t need you. I deserve to be accepted for who I am and not tried to be changed so I’m what you want me to be.
No man or woman should have to change to be accepted. They don’t deserve to be told they are worthless. They don’t deserve to be insulted. They don’t deserve to be abused in any way shape or form. You are loved. You are special. You deserve better. You deserve to be accepted for who YOU are. You deserve the world and more.